A city of blinking lights

Each night, I stare from the window of my 24th floor, out into the city.
There are no stars in the sky- too much light pollution.
When I look out, I see blinking lights.
Even late into the night, cars continue to go down the streets, as many people have night shifts..
Have we lost our way or forgotten our biological rhythms.
Where is the moonlight, when do we ever sleep?
College is about the nightlife; they say that that's the best part, but it feels so unnatural to me, to stay up so late, without sleeping, because then you miss the brilliance of the day. The way the sun peaks out from the East, and you miss the present of a brand new day.
That's why I like to get up in the morning.

For me, college has been about finding myself, it's true.
And I think I've come full circle.
I've learned how to be comfortable in uncomfortable situations because I've done it so many times.
I've learned how to handle novel situations as well.
I've learned how to relax, and let go, and let things happen.
I've learned how to constantly, persistently choose happiness.

Most of all, I realized I had no pressure to be who I was not. That it was all in my head, and that to be able to freely express yourself without caring what others thought was the most liberating experience I have ever felt. I am still excited about this journey,of understanding myself, but returning to nature, being myself saves the most energy and gives out the highest energy into the world, and I pleasantly find that the world is good to me and accepts me for who I am. I realized how to relax around people and not soak in their negative or anxious energies, but rather take them, let them pass through you and transform them into something better. I realized I don't like to stay up late, and I don't like sleep deprivation. That's what I'm working on. I commit to my happiness and health.